Good morning Angels !
Dieu me donne la grâce à cet examen, il est mon dernier examen et tu ne m’as jamais laissé derrière. Je sais aujourd’hui ne fera pas exception. Merci pour ta grâce tout au long de cette année. J’espère que je vous ai fait fiers.
You taught me to be brave … You said that real Gs don’t show their emotions lol … So I won’t !
I’m gonna be just like you taught me to be … I’m gonna be strong, hold my head high and forget about all this in between.
I will not give a …. !!! Hahaha
Actually I don’t !! Lol
Even though sometimes it seems like your in the middle of all this , you actually have taught me a lot ; I’m glad you did😊.
I’m not the type of girl a man would think to buy flowers.
I’m not the type of girl that a man would think to open the door for .
I’m not the type of girl that a man would think to take out on a date;
But that doesn’t change the fact that I’m a girl.
I ain’t got no gavel. I ain’t tryna fight nobody battle
I just wanna be free
I ain’t tryna be nobody’s chattel
Can you not hear me? I scream and cry , pouring out my heart to you here but no one still hears me! I tell you where to find me but you never come looking…
Why do you all not care?
you care about others so I know you are capable but why do you not care about me?
I sound like a needy fuck! But do you not see what I’m asking of you here? You rather mistake my cries for help as confused babbles ; the rants of a lunatic. Carry on because soon I won’t be here anymore and you’ll all wonder what happened and what went wrong.
You went wrong because you did not listen out for me. You blotted me out like a mistake on a piece of paper , you wore your sound proof ear plugs and watched me die.
Don’t pretend to have cared , my spirit will not rest knowing you lie to the living about this.
My heart is dying to you, my mind retreats to a state of splendid isolation ;
if this is where I will find my peace, let it be.
I don’t know what to say to you or ask you ; this is why I can’t talk to you.
It’s not that I don’t want to , it’s just I really don’t know what to say.
Again , after you brought me out of this fire I have fallen into it again.???
I know you are a God of second chances but how many do I really have to ask of you??
More like take because I don’t think you will be giving them out so freely anymore.
Every time I tell you I’m sorry and run back into your arms I feel at home again but then Something in that hole, a black hand covered in gems , silver and gold attracts my eye and like a magpie I hop ,skip and jump back …. Into that dark and hopeless place!
I am a QUEEN I do not need to stand for this!!! What is wrong with this body of mine !!?? Can it not be tamed??? What weak frame is this that this princess of glory has been contained in??
My father , my king, forgive me once more but do with me as you will for I know that if I were you I would disown this recalcitrant child.
But I beg you, although this is what I deserve do not pour it out onto me.
My soul drowns in it’s own tears for myself and all that is imperfect about me . My spirit tortures itself for wounding yours and I know I deserve it.
But please, accept this plea from this wretched servant girl from the mud and dirt of the market place that is this world .
If that is all you will hear I beg that it be considered.
Loosen the bonds around my heart that restrict it’s beating…
Cut off the vines that hold back these wings that I’ve always know I thought I had .
And these snakes around my feet, untangle yourselves from the coils you have created , I am immune to your venom ; you’ve bitten me once too many times.
Let me be free , I’m tired of all these bonds; I just want to be free.
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Aaww thank you so much !! that means a lot :) xx